words

In my English mock exam there was a question similar to , "Words are important to us, in a form of your choice write about the words which are important to you,". I immediately disregarded the question and moved on to another one which was offered in the writing section. I really had no idea what people could write on that question anyway.
But since then I've thought about it and come up with the most cliche word to use ever; LOVE.
Because when I think about it, "love" really is a significant word to me. More importantly when prefixed by "I" and followed by "you".
Saying "I love you" is on a whole different level to "love you", "i luv u", "ILY".
Telling someone you love them is like making a promise. A promise that you will never do anything to hurt them, because that's what you do when you love someone, really, it's unconditional.
I think I'm in love with Lewis, but hell am I so bloody confused about it. Sometimes when I'm with him I just want to blurt it out but every time I hold back, fear, I suppose, cuts me off. Maybe it's because I can't decide whether I'm in love with Lewis or I just want to be in love with him. It's been two months and I can't tell if that's a long time to wait or not enough time to wait. Once I fell in love with someone within a couple of weeks, and well, that got me absolutely nowhere in the end. It just seems to me people really just throw around the word "love". Just because your in a relationship with someone doesn't mean your in love with them. Sometimes I think maybe it's for the best. Play it safe, don't get hurt. He says I'm "scarred" from past experiences, that he's concerned on what effect those words will have on me if he decides to say them.
Also another very significant word "Trust".
Because he says I don't trust him when really I just don't want to hear those things, those promises, the "I'll never leave you", because someday one of us will have to leave the other no matter how much now you deny it.
"Sorry"
is really translated to "If I say this, will you stop being mad?"
"Hate"
I really wanted to hate you, to ease the pain, make it easier, but I don't, not at all.
"Regret"
Yup, a lot of that at this stage. I should have done more, I should have done less.
I don't like where this has ended up.
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lolololol since when have i been so insightful anyways.